“Life is short, make every outfit count!” -Hilary Jacobs
I lost my auntie on New Years day and baby let me be honest and say that the first few days and the last few days including the funeral were the hardest. My cheeks were almost wrinkled from drowning in tears.
The days in between, I’m not ashamed to say that I spent them eating everything in sight. I’m pescatarian so besides meat, I ate it!
Grief can be extremely hard and if you’re anything like me, being sad is just not on our agenda of things to do. I love smiling, being happy and and laughing, but a life full of constant laughter is almost unrealistic. Life is full of peaks and valleys! The lows shape and mold you; they teach you things that the highs could never teach.
People die everyday and yes death is apart of life but it feels extremely different being on the other side of “It’s going to be ok” or “ they’re in a better place”. I know she’s in a better place and I know that I will be ok but I couldn’t stop my mind from wishing that I’d called more. Although I have our old messages to look back at, I wish I’d texted more. I wish I visited more, took more photos etc… I find myself thinking “wow, my auntie was alive and well only a few months ago”.
I tend to rush myself through the uncomfortable emotions whether it be grief, anger and especially sadness! Feelings are not facts and you can find yourself lost there for a long time. However, it is extremely important to allow yourself to feel whatever it
All in all, it is important to have good people in your life who can not only depend on you but who you can depend on wholeheartedly with no strings attached. People who will help you through the ebb’s and flows of life
If you are grieving the loss of someone physically or maybe they’re still on earth but no longer apart of your
It’s one day at a time but you will get there suga!